“Let your FAITH be BIGGER than your FEARS”

Therefore, since we have been justified through faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ, through whom we have gained access by faith into this grace in which we now stand. And we boast in the hope of the glory of God. 

~ Romans 5:1-2

 

One of my favorite qualities of the Lord is that He doesn’t just give you the answers right away.  He sees the mangled mess you’ve made of yourself and slowly, as you surrender to Him in prayer, begins to untangle the knots until you come to the end of yourself and all that’s left is Him!

 

I spent most of the night tossing and turning.  “What am I SO afraid of?”  I feel overwhelmed with words most of the time but could never get them out on paper (or post).  But, why?!  So last night, I wrestled with the Lord over how I was feeling.    Sometimes I was venting.  Most of the time I was quiet.

 

As I laid in the dark, I began to cry.  I rationalized all the reasons I stopped singing; stopped writing; stopped creating – years ago.  I gave God all my “best” excuses.  Lord knows, I’ve got a LONG list of lazy arguments and too many “I’m not (fill in the blank) enough” to count.

 

His reply, “It was never about YOU!”   

 

Wow!  “Okay. I’m listening, Lord.”

 

God doesn’t care about my excuses; how valid they are or are not.  He doesn’t give me any talent or gift so that I can receive accolades or affirmation of my greatness.  On the contrary, He blesses me because He loves me.  He gave me talents and/or gifts so that others might know HIM through me!  He went before me in life, with grace and mercy, so I could bring glory to HIM!  So I could honor HIM!  So I could praise HIM!!

 

“But, I want them to notice me, Lord.  I want them to like me; to want me; to need me.  Above all, I want them to love me, Lord!”  And God, in His sweet, tender voice says, “My girl, I know your heart.  You need loyalty, stability, promises kept.  You need love, faithfulness, and you deserve relationship that is unconditional.  Only One person can give you all of that – ME!”

 

 

“He must become greater; I must become less.” ~ John 3:30

 

 

I traded the effortless beauty of God-breathed talents for a pride-filled performance of pretending.  I did not honor who God created me to be – FULL of love, funny (not just self-deprecating), extrovert, introvert, romantic, loyal, thoughtful, compassionate, empathetic, talented – because I was busy trying to be everything I thought I needed to be for everyone else!  I was left bankrupt of all the things I desired most.  And, I conditioned myself to accept less than what God ever wanted for me!

 

FEAR has been a driving force in my life for far too long.  It may lay dormant for a time but always seems to rear its ugly head back into the theme of my life.  I’ve allowed it to steal my passion, rob my talents, isolate me from opportunity, and paralyze my ability to live the life God intended for me.  Ultimately, I’ve given fear permission to deny God access to my heart and my life, to be used for His glory, to become the woman He created me to be.

 

“Jesus turned and said to Peter, ‘Get behind me, Satan!  You are a stumbling block to me; you do not have in mind the concerns of God, but merely human concerns.'” ~ Matthew 16:23

 

My daughter is a megaphone God speaks through to get my attention.  Sometimes, it’s dialed down to just a whisper.  Often, He’s got it turned up to “high” with the sirens going at the same time.  Through her, He reminds me what life looked like before “fear” touched me.

 

It is the presence of joy.  Not as a seasonal ornament but as an attribute of Him living in each of us all year long.  It is the beauty of living a carefree life.  It is being confident in who He created you to be!  (Like feeling fierce when you leave the house wearing all your favorite clothes – even if they don’t match, with wild hair, too much lip gloss, and a handbag full of stuffed animals!   Or singing center stage in the minivan and busting out in fully choreographed dance moves when the driver next to you starts to stare.)  It is full of boldness as fears are faced with unshakeable, child-like faith.  It is peace in knowing the future is full of hope and promise.

 

“But those who trust in the Lord will find new strength.  They will soar high on wings like eagles.  They will run and not grow weary.  They will walk and not faint.”  ~ Isaiah 40:31  

 

Father, thank you for loving me, unconditionally!  Thank you for being so patient with me.  Thank you for inspiring me and speaking to me through my children.  Lord, cause my FAITH to be bigger than my FEARS!  Give me a boldness so I can honor You by being the woman You created me to be.  Set me free from the chains that have held me in bondage so that You can have full access to my heart and life!  Jesus, give me courage when I am afraid.  Bind up the enemy of lies when his whispers sound louder than Your Truth!  Break me of the pride that keeps me separated from you.  My heart is willing but I am weary from the journey.  Please be gentle, Lord.  I want so much to bring your glory!  In Jesus precious name….Amen

 

 

 

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  1. John
    Aug 05, 2015 @ 03:53:32

    Awesome babe!!!

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  2. Kathleen
    Aug 05, 2015 @ 04:15:12

    My head acknowledges that my life is about Jesus. Unfortunately, my emotions seem to follow my desperately wicked heart that is crying out, “It is all about you!”
    Thank you for your Honesty, Brianna. I love it!

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  3. Vashti M
    Aug 05, 2015 @ 05:47:37

    I love how and honest and transparent you are about the struggles you face. Joy is definitely more than just an ornament and I can relate to how fear grips itself around my heart at times in different areas. I’m praying to that my faith would be bigger than my fears! Thank you for sharing!!

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  4. dfeesago
    Aug 05, 2015 @ 19:23:44

    Finally! While scary, opening ourselves to be used as God’s vessel is the most rewarding and fulfilling journey because it is why He created us – to shine forth His Almighty Glory! So proud of your faith, courage, and trust in God!

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  5. Bonnie
    Aug 05, 2015 @ 20:11:46

    I so, so love how God works in our lives drawing us with His loving kindness…thanks for sharing my beautiful sister…I can echo everything you said. Blessings and love

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  6. njaguilar
    Aug 06, 2015 @ 05:12:21

    Thanks for your courageous sharing, Brianna❤

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  7. Toni Busby
    Aug 06, 2015 @ 08:41:55

    Fear Not! Is the most stated command in scripture. Why? Because fear binds our hearts, rendering us ineffective. The truth is that we are “Powerful beyond measure” once we refuse to give fear access. Sister, your beautifully written words are a liberating reminder to keep our eyes fixed on the eyes of Christ, “… and the things of Earth will grow strangely dim.” Thank you for sharing what was on your heart.

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  8. Troy Asher
    Aug 06, 2015 @ 15:32:18

    Well done Brianna! What a great reminder of how much stock we put in others opinions of us. It can paralyze us and keep Him from doing Kingdom business through us. What is interesting to me is how much stock we put in others opinions, who barely think of us, and put such little stock in His opinion. The One who always has us on His mind. My opinion doesn’t really matter girl but He has given you a gift and you know it. Use it to bring Him glory!

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  9. Tina
    Aug 06, 2015 @ 22:19:26

    I love your open heart and your deep love and reverence for God! I completely understand where you’re coming from. Thank you so much for sharing your heart!
    Xoxo

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  10. Gina
    Aug 11, 2015 @ 06:27:54

    So proud of you stepping out and facing fear! Beautifully written reminder to have faith in Him and let go of the fear.

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